All my life I’ve never had any positive reinforcement for myself. It’s always negative. Always being out down or looked at like I’m a bum and have no hope. No one has ever really had my back or try supporting me. I’ve had enough of that from my parents. But that’s the last thing I need are others who are close to me. Fuck this.
nobody ever knows the mood I’m in, but I just hate it when people assume that I’m in a negative mood and I’m a debbie downer…like fuck off!
I just hate the fact that when people think I’m such a Debbie Downer when I’m all pissed off, like that is going to make me even more pissed off and not want to talk to anyone. Get your fucking shit straight rather than jumping to fucking conclusion, it’s so fucking annoying, it IRKS me really really bad.
I just don’t understand how people can’t read properly, like I fucking send a damn text asking something, and you fucking think I’m talking about a different day or some other things or whatever…..ugh!
I’m not a very selfish person at all. I always do my best to put others before me and make sure they are happy. I care for others happiness rather than for mine. I like to see people happy and cheerful and full of joy because that makes me happy to see that. It warms me up and lets me know that I’m serving a purpose and I’ve done something good in order for those around me to have a smile on their face. Everyone ask me how come I’m never selfish nor care about my happiness, I just tell them that it doesn’t really matter for me, because I’m just delightful to see others happy, that’s all I really want.
But just once when I try to be selfish and want to be happy and flip out on people or speak my thoughts, I come across as a dick or rude or even an asshole. I try to do things for myself and want my own happiness once in a while too, but I just get put down, or everyone around me just gets the damn wrong idea. I do my best to put others first because I want to see them smile, but when I try to do me and make sure I get a smile of my own, everyone just disapproves of this and just puts me down for it. I just find it not fair at all.
Whenever I come across a point and want to make a point everyone just assumes that my mind isn’t clear and that it’s all clogged up and I’m not thinking straight, well fuck you, why else would i be speaking my mind or trying to make a point? It’s because my mind is clear and I am thinking straight.
Sorry for the rant my tumblr world, I just needed to get this off my chest.
Alarm for work so I can get to work by 7am and clock in at 730am 😂😂
Probably the best part of my night for edc Sunday. Had so much fun! Can’t wait for next year!
Calvin Harris. Late upload from edc Sunday. Yeah I kinda wanna go back hahaha. So exhausting but so much fun. 😭😭😭
My beautiful #wcw I just feel like we are getting closer together. 😝